Posted October 17, 2008on:
You could probably guess from my previous post that I’m a wee bit depressed right now. Have to love the chemical imbalance roller coaster! It’s hard to function when I hit a low like this.
What I’d really like to do is crawl back into bed and sleep until this passes.
What I have to do is teach a class today. Help a newer colleague with his tenure portfolio. Do a bit of prep work for the panel discussion tomorrow. Work on some weeding in our reference collection. Clean my apartment. Pick up some groceries.
Most of this will be done in a haze. It’s just how it is. I don’t feel sorry for myself. What I feel is aggravated that I’m this way.
Some of what I learned at the meditation retreat is helping. Doing more observing and less reacting makes me able to function at least. And I know that this will pass. Which gives me some hope.
But when I can, I will den up in my apartment this week to give my rather battered spirits a chance to mend a bit. And I do need some sleep. My schedule has been out of whack over the past couple of weeks and I need to get back into my more regular routine.